my new obsession. downloaded pretty much ALL of their songs hahaha

ZE:A is a thing of the past.

these guys are seriously talented! and they're all cute/hot and quirky and individual and great in their own ways :)

my fave? well, at first it was minho. and he still is!

but jonghyun is lookin mighty fine. and onew is cute and dorky. and taemin is baby cute. and key is .. weird. hahaha but he's cool too..

bah i shouldn't even be doing this!

i have two psych exams this week, one of which is tomorrow. bleh

i had to delete nearly all of my other songs to fit the many shinee songs onto my teeny mp3 player.

thank goodness i'm getting myself an ipod soon!!!

ugh. i kinda despise myself. but then... eh hahaha

once i buy my ipod, all i'm gonna need are a pair of uggs (which btw i will NEVER get.. although i have been looking at emus hahahaha) and i'll be the perfect north shore fob girl :P

ah well... i'm still the same on the inside!

drinking iced chai latte. good but coffee makes me farty and upsets my stomach a bit... and i'm nearing the end of my monthly flow so i'm not feeling good cuz of that too :P

my life in three words (why is it always three words? why not one. or ten??): lazy but trying...?

eating printing sleeping :P

hmm..

yeah.

oh i realized something about myself. i seem to find myself liking guys who already have a girlfriend! but i'm not doing it on purpose! it just so happens that the guy i realized i like has a girlfriend, and they've been together for like three years! sad... the perfect guys are already taken!!

when will i get a boyfriend? is there something wrong with me? i haven't even had my first kiss yet. geez.

my friends and i convince ourselves that we're normal and that we are good for not having freakin lost our virginity by this age. but then again. we are a rare breed... indeed..

oaifkmao;ejflkansd;lj

okay i'm good.

not really, i'm still pretty farty/gassy.

anywhoo.

back to studying child psych!

hooray.

NOT.

okay.

bye.

=_=;;

I'm a math education major, but I have to tutor before I get into the program. I met this guy who goes to my college through tutoring at a nearby high school. We talked and he seemed like a nice guy. The following week (I see him on Fridays), we walked and talked because he was gonna take a bus, which happened to be near my dorm, which is about 10 minutes away from the high school. I really started to like him. I became curious, so I cautiously searched him name on facebook and I found him, and also found out that he has a girlfriend - she's my age (I'm a freshman, he's a sophomore) and she's at a different school that is out of state. I was disappointed but I decided to just be friends with him.

But yesterday, it became complicated for me. He tutors two periods, and the one we tutor together is his second. Turns out that our class was watching a movie he had just watched in his other class. About 20 minutes after we started, he told me he was just gonna leave. I said alright, and that since I had only been there 20 minutes I was gonna stay. He sat back down and said that he was going to stay until four, meaning he would wait 15 more minutes. When we finally left at four on the dot, we walked and talked together again, this time in the rain. When we got to the bus stop I decided to wait 3 minutes with him for the bus. When the bus was nearing he mentioned that due to Spring Break and Good Friday, he wouldn't see me for 3 weeks. I simply nodded. I think he wanted to hug me or something but I was being oddly aloof so he just patted me on the arm and left.

I think I really like him now, but I feel stupid because I'm just digging my own grave. He has a girlfriend, and from what I can tell, they seem to like each other a lot. But why didn't he just mention her to me in some subtle way? We've talked three times now, but he hasn't mentioned her once. And now I won't get to see him for three weeks and I'm too cowardly to friend him on facebook.

Should I do anything about this? Am I reading too much into this?